It got me thinking, really hard.
This is not the first time I’ve been asked about my volunteering work, in fact, I got it all the time when people knew I am a volunteer. I don’t know why my student’s question kinda hit deep down in my heart, leaving a huge lump in my throat. Why did I started volunteering instead of just backpacking?
You see, almost 3 years ago everything in my life changed drastically in just one day. Yes, in less than 24 hours I was on my way to something that I never ever thought that I would do in life- living a nomad-backpacker-ish life. Little that I know that one change was my key to something bigger than myself. That day lead me today; typing this in this lab room, listening to Beyonce’s I Was Here while all the students and lecturers busy doing their stuffs in Central Java, Indonesia. I am here.
When my life was on the low, when I was still lost in the transition from being a full time student, funded with scholarship and living a comfortable safe life to a homeless, cashless and jobless person, I had so many amazing people who stood by me. People who opened their door, shelter me, feed me, hire me and showed me that I can in fact go further in life. These people are my angels. Because of these people, I stood strong and kept pushing stronger than ever. I went travelling, made a living on odd jobs and my blog, took any kind of job that could mean food for another day- I was doing everything and anything to keep living.
Then one day it hit me, I’ve seen so many countries, experience so many culture and met so many people BUT where is this leading me to?
I need to restart, I need to do something to make myself happy. I didn’t know back then that being happy doesn’t mean it has to be my own happiness , it could also be someone else’s happiness. So by then I found a reset button. I’m glad I pushed it and restart again because, here I am doing what I love, everyday.
So to answer you my dear student
” This fragile life we are living now, it’s a precious gift given to us by the universe. A gift that I value. I want to live a life not only for me but for others. I see so much sadness, so much despair and hurt in this world. I’ve been through it all and I don’t want anybody else to go through it. I cannot do a lot but I know with my small actions I can help contribute to the world, like Mother Theresa always say “a drop water sends a thousand ripples across the lake”. I just wanna wake up every morning and give back to this world, give it back it any form. Even it’s as small as making someone smile when they are sad, I will feel happy. Because being happy is the key to open the door to other things in life. So I am here to do what I can to help you feel happy and love and live your life to your fullest.”